yaty spoils my whole morning today. SUPER DUPER UBER PISSED OF WITH HER.. whatever its over.. shop matters ehx.. 

work at Timberland was cancelled today and so i could have a nice bath and meet Shir in the early evening. was going to have Sakae with her. one thing in common between us is that we both love salmons and Jap cusine. haha. so my mood got better after meeting her for dinner. after dinner went to Vivo mart to get chocolates and watch movie, 'Made of Honor'. the show was quite nice.. for some reason. yea =)).. after that took bus and sent Shir back home. she was having this cramp thingy.

the bus was so crowded. listen to music along the way so didnt talk much. bus missed the stop and yes!.. haha got more time with her.. but she was having cramp so dont know its a good thing or a bad one. walk her back to her house area and didnt really to the her house downstairs cause she saw her dad driving back. so went home after that. the same journey i used to tak.. =)) so thats all for today.. 

so the day ends in a blink.. was really excited. i really mean it. its those kind of feeling like, after so long can really see that person, cant wait, u know. my heart almost stopped when i saw you. Had Sakae and was catching up with each other. At times, was stuttered and both of us remained silent, i just so much to ask you, its just that i don't know where to start. i really want to sit down there and look at you but i just dont have the courage to. Asked about your BGR stuffs, was kind of awkward; but still i went on asking. i just wish that we really can sit down there the whole afternoon talking about all this stuffs just like what we did last time. m really happy to see you, really. It really makes me thought of those happy times when m with you. we were talking about last time, u said that i've forgotten, i really didnt. whats worse is that movie. it really depicts about my life. its like the father, cherish his wife and wanting to save the relationship only when its too late; also realising that he is a stupid and immatured guy that time. when you passed me that chocolate, i really got the urge to hold your hand and don't let go. when theres a few times when m whispering in your ear, i just wanted to kiss you like i did last time, but thinking that theres someone else in your mind i decided not to. if i were given a chance to turn back time, i really would want to cherish you more than anything. i realised that other than hm, your the 2nd one that i love most.. believe it or not, its up to individual. i love her more than you? doubt so.. if i love her more than you i wont be talking to you right now. instead i'll be talking to her. its always 'you can find someone else better' and it always happened at the wrong time. Thinking that i'll be having a nice bus ride with you like last time, to realised that its a single deck. And you chose to sit in front. The bus was so cramped and throughout the whole journey we listened to music instead of chatting. we no longer have so much to talk about like we used to. When i realised that we were reaching m feeling kinda down. The bus missed a stop so we walked in. Decided to walk slowly but you had cramp so didnt really walk that slow. when u said that u wanted me to piggy back you, i really gonna do it. the moment u bent down, i really felt so helpless. all i can is watching u. i regretted not bringing my sweater.. the journey back home i got so emo.. just dont know for what reasons.. i was walking the path where i'll always walk when i send u home.. i was listening to that song over and over again. whatever it is, i screwed everything up again. again and again. why is it always that i make wrong moves. 

i did the same mistakes for 3 times. m really just so hate myself. serious. if only... its so easy to just type a 'if' onto the computer, but will it really happen after you typed it? i doubt so.