Friday, September 12, 2008
kinda long never update already ehx.
was having assessment this week, very tired.
recently quite a few things happened.
theres this person we call her 'fish' transferred over to BJ not long ago.
thought was okay at first, but it doesn't seems to be like what i thought.
quite don't like her now though she's the one doing the roster.
just hope that she'll get transferred out and Mandy come back.
haven't been sleeping well these few days, be it cause of school work or other things.
was rushing all my assessment stuff lately and haven't been sleeping enough.
Sean helped me with my digital media.
i just think that without his help that day, i think i'll just die.
we chiong overnight together lar.
this terms asessment i just felt that i really didnt tried my best.
as usual i just dragged everything back and close to submission date then i chiong.
this time is really way worse than previous time.
why m i like this? when doing that Basket's work i'll just finish everything fast and wont drag.
but for my own assessment i just don't understand why i'll drag.
anyway this Basket didnt pay my 1mth salary. which is 400+.
i cant contact him. nothing.
whatever it is lesson learnt and just don't be so gullible next time.
jovi and yy bought me a tee when they were in HK.
the tee is quite ncie and i think that when i goes back to gym, it might be a bit tight fitting.
anyway whatever it is, its a thought that counts. haha.
Jw's going ns soon. and after next week around mid Sept, buddy is going in too.
all the NS topic when we saw each other.
think yea . so shall stop here. abit tired already. =)) nights all.
theres really alot of questions that i want to ask you.
but i just felt so. 'scared'?
i know a long relationship is hard to forget but are your trying to forget?
that day was stupid to ask you that question.
cause m just so afraid hearing the answer which i think u'll give.
i really don't know what to do.
should i really move on. or should i just continue to be like this.
seriously when i said think of another solution, i really hope theres a better one other than that one that you suggested that day.
i won't want to accept it cause i know it'll be back to 0.
its complicated, but do u think by pretending nothing has happen will gona help?
its quite painful when you talk about things related to him.
i don't know why i feel so deep inside, so fast.
you said that you keep thinking of him. this really makes mi ponder.
are you really trying to forget him?
when i think about all this things, m really curious to know something.
how impt m i to you? do you have feelings for me?
its really in a mess. everything seems so hard now.
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