this music keep playing in my mind..
Leona Lewis - Yesterday..

its was damn sad after reading the posts.
for the first time i cried while reading a blog.
not matter how sad a post is i can still take it except this.
this really breaks me down.

'cherish with what you have now, its okay if its break up.'
i just thing that breaking up is not the end of the world.
theres many other things that worse than a break up.
that one is one good example.

can you imagine that you have been missing this person so much hoping that you can see him / her soon. the day got closer and closer thinking that the misery's gonna end and suddenly u got a phone call saying that he / she had passed away. can you imagine that after so many days of misery, and in the end u still cant get to see this person?

reading her blog just makes me think about things that happened these few days.
i just realised that i didnt really cherish the time m with her.
i didnt really tell her how i feel (but another prob comes in when i told her how i feel)
i just found that i took everyday that i spent with her for granted.
realised that i have not done enough for her.
the things i've done were so insignificant.

gotta go down for jogging.. continue later.

back.. so just continue from here.
went jogging with mom.
ran till the park beside KK there.
was thinking about those stuffs while i was running.
have you ever thought of those breathe taking moments with this someone?
well kinda like thought of it after thinking bout the blog thing and yesterdays thing.
kinda off. like running why will think bout those breathe taking moments.
was helping mom bout her breathing method.
she tend to be lazy.
on the way she've got 101 excuses not to run.
so have to keep pushing her.
sometimes i just think that mom i really cute.
and she behaves like a kid at times.

read my previous posts.
my very first post.
sound really kinda childish. haha. BTH.
who doesnt have this childish side right. haha..
stop self consoling LIM JIA HAN.
yy said that m best at self consoling. i agree.

went home after doing pull ups.
didnt really do much.
first thing after i got in is to talk to her on msn.
then after that went to do my push ups and crunches.
cause mom went to bath so cant use the bathroom.
think gonna run again this Wed.
but thing is Wed i just receive email saying that i've got this stupid FYP talk to attend to.
don't know what to do guess i'l just forward the mail to Asmarni and let her see. haha

' Why is it that,
there must be a reason to bring everyone together?
Such rare and precious get-together.
I didn't want it to end you know.
I don't want to have to go home alone.
That breaks me. '

the Sept 20th post was killa. kinda hits me hard on the face.
i cried cause of the blog. omg..

i hope i didnt make the wrong decision for telling you the blog.
and really hope you understand my intention.
sorry about yest. cause quite emo yest.
and reason for asking you that question yest partly is cause i read the blog.
maybe its cause i felt insecure? probably.
its been so long since i got into something so deep. real deep.
don't ask me how or why cause this kinda things i really don't know.
when humans start to learn walking, they tend to trip and fall, but will you just cause a fall you'll stop learning how to walk?